To: God, Jesus, and Holy Spirit...
When I look around and see all the people in my life
I see change and progression, care and no depression
I cant seem to see change in my own life as I can in others
maybe its because I care more for others than myself but it still hurts.
The tides of change to me have not yet risen.
I can see its my brothers birthday, 22 is getting up there and my 21st to come
Graduation for all the high school students, and my college graduation pending. I'm engaged and getting married, Nothing never seemed so far away.
I find I'm getting comfortable in the Lord and with my spirituality
So its time for the tides of change to wash away the writing in the sand
The writing of all the contentedness, pain, nervousness, resentment, and complacency. Its time to be washed anew in the tides of change.
I find it funny that this; the writing, would be my source of emotional expression. I cant seem to hold back tears when I think of everything I could have done better. Not letting people down, causing hurt and pain. Sometimes I find reasons why its my fault, and I cant seem to lift the weights after I pile them all on. My shoulders aren't strong enough to carry the weight of the world.
That's why its time for the tides of change to wipe clean the writing in the sand, and for me to step out of what I know and move forward without looking back. I need to. I have to. My future, and well being depend upon it. And If I don't change my complacency, I already know the outcome:
Revelations 3:15-16
“I know all the things you do, that you are neither hot nor cold. I wish that you were one or the other! But since you are like lukewarm water, neither hot nor cold, I will spit you out of my mouth!"
Now its time for u to do your part. I already know I cant do this on my own, because Ive tried. Ive tried for the past few years. I need to be accountable for my actions; yes even my non-actions. If I stumble help me back up, if I'm drowning resuscitate me with the holy spirit. I need to be pushed into the fire to be refined and molded.
Its hard to ask for help, especially since I brought all this upon myself but when I was reading my bible today I came across:
Ezekiel 18:30-31
" Therefore, O house of Israel, I will judge you, each one according to his ways, declares the Sovereign Lord. Repent! Turn away from all your offenses; then sin will not be your downfall. Rid yourself of all the offenses you have committed, and get a new heart and a new spirit.
Amen...
Wednesday, June 30, 2010
Thursday, June 17, 2010
L.O.V.E.
Alpha Omega Company Update.
To whom this does concern. I am halfway through my rotation and will be returning home soon. I always seem to run into the most interesting, or if it were you probably the weirdest people you will ever meet. This Iranian man was in the temple praying for his family and friends when I walked in and startled him. He stood up and ran! He came back about 3 minutes later with some water, bread, and a pillow to sit on. Even though the temple was crumbling around him, this priest was not going to give up on that church. No matter how many holes were in the walls. Well it turns out he knew how to speak English and we started conversing. This man who lived off of 2 dollars and 75 cents a week was supporting his family and everyone who came to the temple to pray. I found out that he had bought the bread and water (which I was eating) with his weekly wages.
How could it be that in America and Canada we can barely find time to talk to our own families and care for them but than somehow a priest halfway around the world would show more love and respect to a complete stranger that I do with most people I know. This was what made this all so interesting. When I asked him what drove him to do what he does, he gave me one word...LOVE. He said it stood for Living Our Victories Everyday...
You see to this man caring for a church wasn't about the holes in the walls or the money he didn't have. It was about caring and loving others first to get the victory in Christ no matter what the cost. His church was the people in his community and abroad, flesh and blood bound to an eternity in either heaven or hell. His greatest joy and passion in life was gaining those small victories everyday. I find that you will not get to where you want to go unless you walk, and walking takes small steps. Well Heaven is kinda the same way, you have to make the small victories along the way or else you wont get to where your going. Sometimes I wish I could talk to you in person because there is so much I want to say but this paper is only so long...
I love you all and I will be back soon, Lord permitting...
Lt. Kevin Dilts
To whom this does concern. I am halfway through my rotation and will be returning home soon. I always seem to run into the most interesting, or if it were you probably the weirdest people you will ever meet. This Iranian man was in the temple praying for his family and friends when I walked in and startled him. He stood up and ran! He came back about 3 minutes later with some water, bread, and a pillow to sit on. Even though the temple was crumbling around him, this priest was not going to give up on that church. No matter how many holes were in the walls. Well it turns out he knew how to speak English and we started conversing. This man who lived off of 2 dollars and 75 cents a week was supporting his family and everyone who came to the temple to pray. I found out that he had bought the bread and water (which I was eating) with his weekly wages.
How could it be that in America and Canada we can barely find time to talk to our own families and care for them but than somehow a priest halfway around the world would show more love and respect to a complete stranger that I do with most people I know. This was what made this all so interesting. When I asked him what drove him to do what he does, he gave me one word...LOVE. He said it stood for Living Our Victories Everyday...
You see to this man caring for a church wasn't about the holes in the walls or the money he didn't have. It was about caring and loving others first to get the victory in Christ no matter what the cost. His church was the people in his community and abroad, flesh and blood bound to an eternity in either heaven or hell. His greatest joy and passion in life was gaining those small victories everyday. I find that you will not get to where you want to go unless you walk, and walking takes small steps. Well Heaven is kinda the same way, you have to make the small victories along the way or else you wont get to where your going. Sometimes I wish I could talk to you in person because there is so much I want to say but this paper is only so long...
I love you all and I will be back soon, Lord permitting...
Lt. Kevin Dilts
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